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|Salam, Alhamdulillah like all I have been born as a Muslim, and have been raised as a Muslim, I completely believe in Allah as the one and only God to whom there is no partner, and I accept Muhammad to be the last prophet. I accept and believe in all of the teachings of the Quran. I do admit that I haven't been the best of Muslims throughout my life, while I have never drunk alcohol, I've never had a sexual partner, I've obeyed my parents for the most part, though I still committed sins such as missing out prayers, wasting time, listening to music, for a small part of my life I used to look at porn but I never once masturbated and that time is long behind Alhamdulillah. Throughout the last two months I have had a lot of free time, and in that I have pursued to become a better Muslim, I pray 5 times a day including Sunnat, I read the Quran after almost every prayer, and I do my best to help others and be a better person, for example there was a funeral today for a person that I didn't know well, I normally wouldn't have gone, but today I urged my uncle to go and we did everything that we're supposed to and paid our respects. My problem starts here, as I've strived to become better for the sake of Allah and the Hereafter I have also started to get these horrible Haram thoughts that completely go against the teachings of the Quran and Allah(SWT); I don't desire these thoughts at all and wish they would be gone; for a while they were gone and they came back worse, and I know the very essence of what these thoughts insinuate are really haram, and I want nothing more than to be freed from them, but I feel that it has gotten worse the past couple of days. At first they used to come when I try to pray Salat, do wudu, read Quran, but I tried my best to ignore but now it seems to always be worrying me. I have spent most of the last couple of days constantly worrying that I have upset Allah which is the last thing I ever wanted to do. Please help. Salam.|
|Dr. ‘Abd. Lateef Krauss Abdullah|
In the name of Allah, the Most Gracious, the Most Merciful
Thank you for your question brother. The evil nature of the thoughts you are having is probably due to the fact that you have decided to more seriously dedicate yourself to Allah and His worship, which can only mean that somebody – i.e. Shaytan – is not happy with you!
Nothing upsets him more than seeing people re-dedicate themselves to Allah and His worship. As such, he will use our minds, i.e. thoughts, to try and throw us off course. Remember in the Qur’an when Allah says:
7:20 (Y. Ali) Then began Satan to whisper suggestions to them, bringing openly before their minds all their shame that was hidden from them (before): he said: "Your Lord only forbade you this tree, lest ye should become angels or such beings as live for ever."
20:120 (Y. Ali) But Satan whispered evil to him: he said, "O Adam! shall I lead thee to the Tree of Eternity and to a kingdom that never decays?"
3:175 (Y. Ali) It is only the Evil One that suggests to you the fear of his votaries: Be ye not afraid of them, but fear Me, if ye have Faith.
7:200 (Y. Ali) If a suggestion from Satan assail thy (mind), seek refuge with Allah. for He heareth and knoweth (all things).
23:97 (Y. Ali) And say "O my Lord! I seek refuge with Thee from the suggestions of the Evil Ones.
50:16 (Y. Ali) It was We Who created man, and We know what dark suggestions his soul makes to him: for We are nearer to him than (his) jugular vein.
41:36 (Y. Ali) And if (at any time) an incitement to discord is made to thee by the evil one, seek refuge in Allah. He is the one Who hears and knows all things.
So brother your sincerity in returning to Allah is creating another kind of test for you. Be prepared! The best way to combat such whispers and thoughts is to continue what you are doing and not stop, for that is what Shaytan wants you to do.
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